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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Major_Character_Death, Rape/Non-Con,
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Shingeki_no_Kyojin_|_Attack_on_Titan
  Relationship:
      Levi/Eren_Yeager
  Character:
      Levi_(Shingeki_no_Kyojin), Levi's_Parents_(Shingeki_no_Kyojin), Isabel
      Magnolia, Farlan_Church, Eren_Yeager, Kenny_Ackerman
  Additional Tags:
      Alpha/Beta/Omega_Dynamics, Self-Harm, Self-Hatred, Canon_Universe, Alpha
      Levi_(Shingeki_no_Kyojin), Omega_Eren_Yeager, Beta_Armin_Arlert, Alpha
      Mikasa_Ackerman, Eventual_Levi/Eren_Yeager, Nightmares, Kenny_Ackerman
      Being_an_Asshole, Overprotective_Mikasa_Ackerman
  Stats:
      Published: 2018-02-14 Updated: 2018-02-19 Chapters: 2/? Words: 2302
****** Returning Nightmares ******
by Currently_Obsessed
Summary
     Based on the prompt: Takes place after the formation of Squad Levi
     2.0. Levi has once again started struggling with flashbacks to his
     time in the underground (one of which includes a sexual assault). He
     falls back into self-harm as a result, but finds support in his new-
     found love, Eren. (bonus points if Eren and Levi have been pining
     after each other for a long time, and even more bonus points if Eren
     is also suffering from self-harm).
     Levi finds himself having recurring nightmares of his past. From
     everything from his mother death to his uncles horrible "Survival
     Training" to the deaths of the two people he had considered his
     family. They leave him sleepless and anxious. It's only when he puts
     the blade to his own wrists once again that he realizes that this is
     far more serious than he originally thought.
     He can no longer lead like he had. But will a teal eyed boy who has
     issues of his own be able to save him from himself while still trying
     to save Humanity on top of it all?
     (You can read now.)
Notes
     Prompt:
      
      
      
     Takes place after the formation of Squad Levi 2.0. Levi has once
     again started struggling with flashbacks to his time in the
     underground (one of which includes a sexual assault). He falls back
     into self-harm as a result, but finds support in his new-found love,
     Eren. (bonus points if Eren and Levi have been pining after each
     other for a long time, and even more bonus points if Eren is also
     suffering from self-harm)
***** Sleepless Nights *****
Chapter Notes
     I was in the middle of writing this... and I added a/b/o dynamics.
     >.>
I groaned into my pillow as sweat covered my brow. This was the third nightmare
this week. Erwin would have my ass if I couldn't perform like I am supposed to
tomorrow. Between the meeting with Nile from the Military Police and all that
damn paperwork that I have been putting off to focus on training the shits that
I have chosen for my new squad, I have been running myself ragged. I looked
like shit when I finally was able to look at myself in the mirror.
I flipped onto my back and looked at the ceiling. I wiped away the disgusting
sweat that was cooling rapidly on my flesh. The air was cool in my room from
the changing of the seasons. Soon it would be winter and we would be fighting
not only the Titans, but the elements as well. 
I always hated sending my men out there with the risk of getting frostbite on
top of getting eaten from those damn monsters.
I sighed as I fluffed my pillow so that I could at least attempt to get more
sleep before sun rise. 
But as soon as the inkling of sleep entered my psyche, the nightmares restarted
right back up again.
The haunting voice of my uncle as he taught me to kill filled my mind. The way
his dirty paws felt as it touched my skin was also vivid as I slept. He always
taunted me whenever I messed up. He taunted my mother for selling her body to
men night after night just to keep me fed.
His family. His own flesh and blood.
The way he spoke my birth given name made me shiver in my own skin. It's why I
changed it when I ran. So I could hold a piece of me to myself and no one else
could taint it further with their dirty mouths. 
Not even Erwin knows my real name. Not Isabel, not Farlan. No one.
"Is this what I get as a nephew? Some dirty bastard of fucking omega
prostitute? Pathetic. Get the fuck up and show me again, or do you want to get
yourself killed?" Kenny sneered as he picked up the discarded knife. He shoved
it at me and got back into a fighting stance.
I coughed as I tried to gather the breath that was knocked out of me several
times in the last hour. I was covered in blood, sweat and tears. But I had
already stopped crying. He hated crying.
I would always get hit if I cried. 
I tightened my grip on the hilt and tried to focus on my uncle before me, but
there were two of him and they swirled around each other. I was too dizzy from
getting hit in the head to focus on only one of him. I felt as if i was going
to retch up the tiny amount of food that my uncle me only an hour and a half
ago. 
My scalp burned from where his fingers pulled my hair time and time again.  
He rushed me and nearly a split second too late, I dodged his hulking body. I
rolled my body away from his but it was a mistake. I groaned as the acidic
taste of my previous meal filled my mouth. I tried to hold it down, but it
burned too much. 
I couldn't stop it as I vomited over the dirt. It stunk to high heaven and it
made me a want to vomit again. I continued to dry heave as Kenny's eyes burned
holes into the back of my head.
"Ungrateful pest!" He growled, his heavy alpha scent was gagging as it
overwhelmed me. He kicked my unprotected stomach and I few about a half meter
away from where I brought my lunch back up.
"You should have just died with that ugly bitch. She was useless. Replaceable.
And you are just like her, shitty brat! You don't deserve to eat if you just
heave it back up!" He kicked me again as I laid on the ground trying not to
make a sound.
"I should just kill you myself." 
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I woke up as the sun filtered into my room. I groaned. 
Another sleepless night. But I needed to get started. I had a small kitchenette
in my room so I got the stove going to make some tea. 
That always seems to make things better. The quicker I got my day started the
sooner it will end. I grabbed the key to Erens cell and put into the pocket of
my uniform before finish dressing for the day. 
The high pit shed whistle of my tea kettle pulled me out of my small daze and I
blew out the fire. I poured some of the boiling water over my tea leaves I had
in a tea cup to let it steep for a bit before I could drink it. I grabbed a
single sugar cube from the bottom shelf of my cabinet for when it was
finished. 
Once the tea was ready, I grabbed the lip of my cup with all my fingers and
lifted it to my own lips. I blew on the steaming, golden liquid before taking a
tentative sip. The rich flavors of the tea filled my mouth and I nodded in
approval. With tea in hand and all my harness straps tightened perfectly, I
headed to Erwin's office.
Even though he couldn't go on expeditions now didn't mean that he was no longer
the commander of the Scout Regiment.
In the back of my mind, I feel the constant nagging of my latest nightmare of
my shitty, abusive excuse for an uncle, but I ignored it as I stepped into
Commander Eyebrows office. Nowadays, he has to learn to write with his
remaining hand. And based in the concentration written between the two bushy
dark blond brows, i say that its still a slow process for him.
His stubble that has only been growing thicker with each passing day is
slightly disheveled as well as his usually pristine hair. It's no longer the
neat comb over with the stubbly undercut.
I have offered many times if he'd like me to take care of it for him, but he
still refuses. I might have to ask that blond string bean that Eren hangs out
with to help Eyebrows. I placed me tea cup down on his desk. 
"Commander," I greeted with a salute. He looked up; his normally vibrant blue
eyes currently dull from staying at HQ while everyone fought titans without
him. He was slowly withering into himself.
"Levi." Even his voice has lost what wad once there. It was like it was taken
from him with the loss of his arm. 
"I was just checking on you before I unlocked Eren for the day. You know how me
gets when he's locked up for to long," I said, losing the formality. He nodded.
I sighed and crossed my arms over my chest. "And I wanted to tell you that you
need to stop this path of self distructution. I'm sending Arlert in to help you
dress for the day. I can smell you from here. It's disgusting." His alpha scent
was bitter with 
He nodded. "Thank you Levi. Send him in as soon as you can, thank you," he said
dismissively. I nodded and grabbed my cup yet again and left.
===============================================================================
After sending the blond Beta to Eyebrows, I started to make my way down to the
dungeons to unlock Eren. But I was stopped by Jean. He was a young alpha that
used to fight a lot with Eren. They have both stopped a lot since we have saved
him from Bertholdt and Reiner. It's one reason why I chose him for a member for
my new squad.
"Do you have a problem, Kerstine?" I asked, keeping my scent neutral. He
swallowed.
"You can't go down there, sir. Squad Leader Hanji said no alpha is allowed. She
entrusted me to deliver the message to you," he said saluting.
"Why?" I demanded. He flushed deeply and dropped the salute to rub the back of
his neck sheepishly. I swear to fuck this young alpha is too childish.
"Spit it out, Kirstine!" I snapped. He flinched, knowing that I'm the stronger
alpha. 
"Eren is in heat."
***** Do Not Read. It isn't done. *****
Chapter Notes
     SPOILER ALERT! DO NOT READ IF YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW THEM!
     Okay now that I have that out of the way, I am not going to be
     following the manga. So Ymir is still alive and I am going to have
     her in the Survey Corps still. There is no Curse of Ymir, but I will
     be mentioning parts of Ymir Fritz and the titans that came from her.
     I'm unsure what to do with Bertholdt and Reiner as of now, but I'll
     think of something for them.
     That is all for now.
I stared at the young two-toned alpha with confusion. Eren? In heat?
"Eren's an Omega?" I asked. Weary, Jean nodded. He audibly swallowed as his
blush deepened in shade.
"Yes, Sir. Hanji said that he just presented, claiming that he must have been a
late bloomer for one of several reasons. One, with his titan abilities, his
body focused more on that than his dynamic. Two, since Omega's usually present
in an environment they feel safe in since he was in the military, he didn't
feel safe so his body suppressed it. Or three, he is naturally a late bloomer."
I nodded as I took all of this information in. The damn brat. If the Military
Police find out that we have an omega in the Scouts, they would revoke our
custody of him faster than we can even spin our heads. It was bullshit, but
that was the cruel world we lived in.
"Alright then, get the new recruits ready then. Do not go easy on them. If they
give you shit, send them my way. I have some paperwork that I need to get done
so I won't be there until around noon, got it, Kirstein. Don't fuck it up. You
and Springer are to make sure that these new shit heads are Scout material," I
said before turning back and walking to my office. I ungracefully fell into my
chair and ran a hand down my face.
I sighed deeply before my mind wandered back to the nightmare from the night
before. I suppressed a shudder and forced my uncle from my mind. Kenny had no
control over me. Not anymore. I was my own man. I fought to save humanity now.
Not my own fucking skin.
I straightened in my chair and grabbed the first document that was on top of
the rather large stack that seemed to be growing every time I looked at it. I
skimmed through it to find that it was a simple request for more horses. Since
the start of this whole situation with Eren, more and more of our horses seemed
to be killed in the line of action. I saw that Erwins now messy signature was
already on the page. I felt a pang of quilt fill me as I thought of my pack
Alpha forcing himself to simple desk work. Hopefully, that blond beta has
already helped him clean up for the day.
I quickly signed the documents and put it off to the side to be shipped off.
I worked in silence as I made a noticeable dent in the papers that needed to be
sorted and signed. 
I got a gentle knock on the door about a quarter till noon.
"Come in!" I called out. A small blond head pokes in. It was Armin.
I sighed as he walked in. The neutral scent from the Beta filled my nostrils. I
tried to keep my scent as calm as I could as to not overwhelm and overpower the
"weaker" dynamic. Not that I personally believed that Beta's or Omegas were
inherently weaker than Alpha's, but I did know that they tended to be warier of
us because of out inherently strong scent. He came to stand in front of my desk
and soluted to me.
"At ease, Arlert," I said, causing him to drop his arms to his sides. "Is the
Commander finally cleaned up?" I asked, keeping my voice monotone. He nodded.
"Yes, sir. He showered, and I helped him shave and clean up whats left of his
arm. I was worried that it would get gangrenous. But there is no infection that
I could find as of yet, but we will need to keep it dry and clean." I nodded at
this information. I have seen many soldiers that even though they returned from
battle, they lost their lives due to infection because of missing limbs or cuts
caused by the Titans that lie beyond our walls.
"Thank you, Armin. I also heard that Eren is in heat. I want you to make sure
that he eats every day and gets clean. That includes fresh bedding and a sponge
bath. I feel that if it is someone that he knows and trusts, he will allow you
into his nesting area to help," I said. "Let Hanji know that this is a direct
order from me. And she is not to experiment on him during his heat.
Understood?" 
He saluted this time. "Yes, Sir!" And with that, I dismissed him and he left my
office. I sighed and tried to go back to paperwork, but I couldn't stay in my
office any longer. 
I stood and strapped into my 3DM gear and headed to the field.
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Those shithead recruits were a bunch of idiotic blunderfucks. So many of the
girls with long hair didn't have it tied up, causing one of them to have their
hair get caught in the mechanism for the gear. Jean had to cut her out of it
and get her new gear. 
I reamed her a new one. Does she even realize how expensive 3DM Gear is!? Or
does she just not care? 
Connie escorted the 15-year-old fucker to the infirmary in case there was any
damage to her scalp. After that, two other recruits couldn't follow orders when
it came to the Gear training and ended up tangled together in the canopy, just
hanging from their hook shots.
 
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